Sometimes, whenever I thought I finished up one assignment, I realise... there are still many to go.

Congrats, first of me finishing the Position Paper. In 48 hours, I have compiled and completed writing the necessary ideas and indentations of my position of Singaporean mindset. Too bad is: I realise, I am 98 words too much. But well, it seems alright to my tutor, so I just go on with it.

Before I proceed, I just realise how confused my mind is for the last entry. Everything I meant to said is in the opposite for the first part of the blog. Man. I must be in the midst of enjoying the assignment.

Well, anyway. Back to the topic.

I was not aware that many things have been piled up, thanks to the continuous inexistence of me in classes. For time record: I have not been to classes for 8 consecutive weeks. Thanks to Rock Fest, Phoenix Fest and Band Jam. Which is what I think: starting from next academic year, I will not perform unless my time is in right organisation with my life.

Anyway, good news. I received a place in Institute of InfoComm Research in NUS. A job during my vacation stay. 8 May till 29 July. 2 months and 20 days. I hope I will enjoy it, but it seems to me that being a research engineer is rather more difficult. I have to do alot of self-study on the arena that I would be given. Next week will be the interview for places. Said that I have already been given a place in the company, just that the supervisors choosing now. Hmm. I hope it is fine

But my fear starts to tremble. Because, despite all these, I still haven't manage to catch up lectures, tutorials and labs. Looks like I am going to mug.

Oh wait, hold on. Still got Sino-Japanese contemporary relations to research on.

I really need to organise properly.

Recently I have been living in supreme poverty. Today, I manage to tell Dr. Patrick of the issue of my face. He understood it is getting worst. I told him I wanted to get treatment from him, but the time is not right for me. I have not enough money. He told me he can wait. But he could see my desperation.

Lucky thing for me: I am going back this week. I need the money. Mom sees the approval. She checked my balance account. She agrees. Man, I suddenly miss home.

Hmm... maybe it will be good. But I don't know. Everytime I go back, there is this bad atmosphere between me and my parents, particularly my father. Nowadays, people told me that I am too critical to my dad. Well. I never thought so before. But now, yeah I do.

So, for me, what I am going to do now is to be natural, just like how I am in school. The joker, according to my co-horts. The 'man who never stop a moment of not chatting' by Joanna. The 'man who always show peace sign' by Jocelyn. The 'guy who can never think critically' by Martin. The 'good angel' by Erin. The 'handsome guy' by Jasmine. The 'guitar freak' by Dr. Patrick. The 'full of himself' by Eng Kiat. The 'good guy'... by one and only ... Ah Jie...

Man, I still cannot forget her. After many years. Now she is getting married soon. And still. Perhaps it is really time not to think about this. I still got a lab to attend, a conference to attend, a lecture to attend, a band to practise, lessons to catch up, and... sleep to get enough of.

1.32 am. Perhaps I should sleep now. Too tired. Cleaning up the room tomorrow. Maybe. Maybe not.

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